waves

We are riding the waves and the sea is very rough. We love you and miss you
so much. Gerlinde

theo

so I am watching footage as we do the promo cut with Soph and Bry and see this awesome interview with theo where he speaks again of the blog and how it was a way to speak to you, that we all shared to which was wonderful.
I noticed indeed that I do intent to write to you here...
nice
like that theo boy very clever and a super BF

You are looking good and delectable and amazing in the reams of tapes, my god it is hard to trust letting it all out into the world.

Still blowing me away all the time it seems

miss you
x

one missing

hey babe
am feeling funny, return back to sydney and sit behind the wheel of the bus and just so get your absence.
no wonder i am running off all the time.
feel like a good year passing as I reach official middle age, you would whip my ass about the middle age body shape, but I am getting it now
friends making dinner and I am able to enjoy my day I feel sure, just one thing so badly missing
thanks for all the good ones and teaching me to enjoy
just wish I could wake up to your mischevious smile
xxxx
ulli

Birthday smiles of you my lovely friend.
Thinking of downing a martini in the sun with you beautiful one.
I simply think of you and love you deep.
You are in me strong as ever, still inspiring me to push, challenge and reach
Craig

happy returns

happy birthday tanjamou
I dont know how old this makes you but I squeeze you close and celebrate your beautiful emerging among us.
xxxx
forever
ulli

what you give today

I cant believe because almost every day is a terrifying struggle to take the risk, to let anyone in, to take the crazy fun paths, to go for more. Yet then I am quoted by Soph and Bry from interview for the doco.
“I am most afraid of being paralysed by fear. I refuse to live in fear” Solon
in making the work we discover our lives. I wont let go.
I am terrified to feel the love for you, it will tear me open like a spear through the guts. I love you.
Give me time.
This bundle of magic misfits had a special time together to say farewell, but you sit like a hush on our lips.
I love you.
miss you angel. just cant scream for fear it will never stop.
we will find a way.
x
Ulli

sounds like tanja, still

Thankyou Tanja. You continue to inspire me to make things. Music for you and Sol. x Jase

I found this image of us today. I was searching for you so I could see your face and remember the cheeky smiles. I think this one is perfect.
I love you Tanja and I miss you hard today.
All over the world a silence will fall and a breath is taken for you. We all miss you and carry you strongly with us everyday...
Come see me in my dreams soon ok. xxx

pain and light

Tanja. Drowning in noise from my niece and nephew as I write here and think of you... Their gorgeous spirited newness and brilliant ignorance of this pain is such a good reminder that we must push on...nothing like kids for that perspective. I will hold you close as I move onwards and forwards into the future not moving away from you, just along and with you in me.. this being just the first of so many loaded days in every year. I'm thinking of all your lovely friends across the world and your family as they navigate the next hours. Your beauty is still vivid as ever and thats the only thing I can be glad for.... the strength of your presence still, like you will still walk into the room after 365 days of trying to remember that you won't. love you and miss you. such pain today. x

I wrote you a little song Tanja
All my love
XJosh

Hey Tan

I miss you!!!
It was so nice to meet Theo and feel a little closer to you for a time.
You really did surround yourself with wonderful, caring, creative people, thankyou for sharing them. You changed everything and continue to in different ways.
Love always, hope ya dancin’
Xjosh

Thank you

To all friends of Tanja a big thank you for the lovely evening you celebrated in her memory on the 25.07.08. Love always, Gerlinde

Awards

So proud to be Sol's date tonight for the awards. You will be in all our hearts and we will celebrate your brilliant works with or without a chunk of metal. bring us strength, this is probably going to be a 'choker' x love you endlessly

returning and returning

so away in Adelaide, did a hoyts norwood and long tears outside heathpool. the hibiscus have returned with a vengance without my tough love pruning.
so many moments of missing in Parkside and you would love barelli's new place where my pruning reigns now:)

so now I have to return to neutral bay yet again.
our endlessness is back, strange but true, was it ever really going to change?
how many times can I return to that door and find it empty inside.

Well the new year will see us taking your work abroad and saying goodbye to neutral bay,
anything you want done little one?

xxs

Surrounded by you

I sit surrounded by you.
I sit in your home in Sydney with so much of you hugging me... as I prepare for my day, as I sit and eat my dinner, as I contemplate where I go next.
It's so lovely to have you close to me once again.
I'll never forget you smile, I'll never forget your infectious cheeky styles and I'll smile every time I feel you brush through my thoughts.
Words may not come through so often but thoughts of you flow constantly.
I can feel you smile warmth on us and I know you would be so proud of what the gang is doing.
I miss you and I will always love you.
Craig xxx

Sieben Monate! Tanja,
Wie oft habe ich all die lieben Worte im Blog für dich und über dich gelesen. Sie sind so wahr! Danke an alle, die mir Hoffnung geben. Du lebst in jedem von uns weiter und zeigst uns den Weg. Du bist in jedem Herzen und deine Liebe vervielfältigt sich auf diese Weise. Wir reisen morgen nach Spanien, wo du so glücklich deine Kindheit verbrachtest. Auch auf dieser Reise bist du bei uns. Wir hören nicht auf an dich zu glauben und versuchen all deine Träume zu erfüllen. Wir lieben dich immer.
Gerlinde

footloose and fancy free

Tread Lightly baby x

MAGPIE

thankyou for my 2 birds i saw you there perched + watching. I felt you so deeply today. warm and so hard together. I just really miss you now. my deep love always x