I found this image of us today. I was searching for you so I could see your face and remember the cheeky smiles. I think this one is perfect.
I love you Tanja and I miss you hard today.
All over the world a silence will fall and a breath is taken for you. We all miss you and carry you strongly with us everyday...
Come see me in my dreams soon ok. xxx

pain and light

Tanja. Drowning in noise from my niece and nephew as I write here and think of you... Their gorgeous spirited newness and brilliant ignorance of this pain is such a good reminder that we must push on...nothing like kids for that perspective. I will hold you close as I move onwards and forwards into the future not moving away from you, just along and with you in me.. this being just the first of so many loaded days in every year. I'm thinking of all your lovely friends across the world and your family as they navigate the next hours. Your beauty is still vivid as ever and thats the only thing I can be glad for.... the strength of your presence still, like you will still walk into the room after 365 days of trying to remember that you won't. love you and miss you. such pain today. x

I wrote you a little song Tanja
All my love
XJosh

Hey Tan

I miss you!!!
It was so nice to meet Theo and feel a little closer to you for a time.
You really did surround yourself with wonderful, caring, creative people, thankyou for sharing them. You changed everything and continue to in different ways.
Love always, hope ya dancin’
Xjosh

Thank you

To all friends of Tanja a big thank you for the lovely evening you celebrated in her memory on the 25.07.08. Love always, Gerlinde

Awards

So proud to be Sol's date tonight for the awards. You will be in all our hearts and we will celebrate your brilliant works with or without a chunk of metal. bring us strength, this is probably going to be a 'choker' x love you endlessly

returning and returning

so away in Adelaide, did a hoyts norwood and long tears outside heathpool. the hibiscus have returned with a vengance without my tough love pruning.
so many moments of missing in Parkside and you would love barelli's new place where my pruning reigns now:)

so now I have to return to neutral bay yet again.
our endlessness is back, strange but true, was it ever really going to change?
how many times can I return to that door and find it empty inside.

Well the new year will see us taking your work abroad and saying goodbye to neutral bay,
anything you want done little one?

xxs

Surrounded by you

I sit surrounded by you.
I sit in your home in Sydney with so much of you hugging me... as I prepare for my day, as I sit and eat my dinner, as I contemplate where I go next.
It's so lovely to have you close to me once again.
I'll never forget you smile, I'll never forget your infectious cheeky styles and I'll smile every time I feel you brush through my thoughts.
Words may not come through so often but thoughts of you flow constantly.
I can feel you smile warmth on us and I know you would be so proud of what the gang is doing.
I miss you and I will always love you.
Craig xxx

Sieben Monate! Tanja,
Wie oft habe ich all die lieben Worte im Blog für dich und über dich gelesen. Sie sind so wahr! Danke an alle, die mir Hoffnung geben. Du lebst in jedem von uns weiter und zeigst uns den Weg. Du bist in jedem Herzen und deine Liebe vervielfältigt sich auf diese Weise. Wir reisen morgen nach Spanien, wo du so glücklich deine Kindheit verbrachtest. Auch auf dieser Reise bist du bei uns. Wir hören nicht auf an dich zu glauben und versuchen all deine Träume zu erfüllen. Wir lieben dich immer.
Gerlinde

footloose and fancy free

Tread Lightly baby x

MAGPIE

thankyou for my 2 birds i saw you there perched + watching. I felt you so deeply today. warm and so hard together. I just really miss you now. my deep love always x

Each Day a New Beginning

You are there...... you are every where. I know you want to say something. Maybe I gotta listen a little harder, right to the center of my heart. Thats where you are. You never left and I never forgot and never will. Such small things are the beauty in your eyes. Those exquisite green emeralds. I can see them now....feel them watching in the moonlight.
It's so thrilling that so many new beginnings are created with the essence of your life.
Thank you for reminding me tonight.

Sol i send you infinite love. Always there....never far.

Construct crew....the brave hearts who share one voice and vision. Embrace the difference and dance like there is no tomorrow.

All my love
Mooma xxx

build anew

we start rehearsals monday and construct again.
Your knife edge clarity is missed, I will be losing me in you again trying to keep the voice strong, Thank heavens for Kris and Paul. Mattana is here, perfect sister cool and ready. She is here to be perfect her.
I just wish you could be with us at the Oaks for our beer and barbie styles. I know I cant go partying and scotch sampling girly style like you.
big pop ons to you sweetness.
anytime, anything xxxx

Hey Babe,
You should have seen the place in Adelaide a few Fridays ago.
Smiles, Tears, Laughter, Singing, Silence.
A place to sit with you, to talk with you, to find that inspiration you give so freely.
We watched you grace the screen once again and once again the tears flowed freely down my face. It took with them some of that pain I had inside, pain that I had not forgotten but had simply shelved behind other emotions.
You can't get away from me my darling friend. I feel close to you. If I close my eyes and hold out my hand you might just take it... And I wish you would.
Lisa and I are going for it... we put in our application to create a new work... Sol gave us his precious time and helped us so much with the application. He even opened our eyes more to what we are creating and why. You should have seen his eyes. They lit up with excitement. His passion is so inspiring. He is a gem... no wonder you were flying...
I love you Tanja.
We miss you so much!

Adelaide style

A truly magic place. A beautiful bench from John Leathart with a pink flowering gum to grow with our memories, sit outside the green room at Adelaide Festival Centre and take a moment. Thankyou to the special Adelaide team. Put on your red shoes and dance

birthday babe

our season of the year little one.
x

Happy Birthday!!!

Dearest Tanja,
thoughts of you flowed through the entire day on Saturday, happy birthday funny girl!!!! My little sweetie touched my shoulder as I cried, her eyes wide and soft.

Happy birthday dear one we toast your day, we drink with sadness but also with delicious memories.... one being that catch up night in London. I am not sure if I ever told you but Christian and I had just found out for sure that I was pregnant with Grace by doing a third (!!!) pregancy test in the toilet just before you turned up!!!! That was the silly grin on our faces. And then you guys arrived and we drank to art, life and being in Europe. Delicious memories.

Happy Birthday Dear Tanja, happy birthday!

Love Helen, Christian and Grace

30 times infinity more

hey sweetness well we missed you but did it in huge liedtke family style, the bosch orchestra and choir had me in tears with Mozarts requiem, the huge splendorous church filled with half of spain and germany all filled with your childhood magic in their eyes. You so should have been there you nonger, thanks for sending me in your place! Still I worked on finger turns with Tahlia who it seems is set on being a singer and dancer and sure didnt mind the spotlight of a pressage in amongst the entire crowd, yes your boy was being outrageous again but hey if you wil leave me on my own!!
Happy birthday beautiful, got me here crying again. I love you I love You I love you please just come on home soon I dont like it without you. Lets make spoons. kisses galore on your soft cheeks till then seeya soon sexy one xxxxxlove infinity ulli

30 years today...
You were born...
30 years this world had the pleasure of you...
Today I had your picture in my hand and Kristina sent me a birthday message...
I was so angry that I almost couldn't breath.. but the image of you stopped me completely and I made a birthday wish... I can't wait for the moment when I see you standing in your addidas suit with your arms open wide and a smile on your face.
We celebrate you with our love, with our memories and with a group of people standing hand in hand...
Tomorrow we have a drink for you...
I love you dear friend and still feel you will walk into my life with a cheeky grin and a crazy story...
30 + more we wanted...
I love you Tanja...
Happy Birthday

30 today

My sweet precious friend for life, I just wanted to wish you a Happy 30th Birthday. I am so sad. I still can not believe that this is real. I wanted to grow old with you. It's just so crazy. I miss you so much. You were so young. You will be eternally young. I love you